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Of course I All my life I was one of those people that zigged when I should have zagged. I was that one person that actually took that,”Wrong turn at Albuquerque
!”There were many times I almost felt like this could be a fact
that if a minute piece of meteor perhaps the size of the head of a thumbtack and at that precise moment everybody was standing ass to ass that particular piece of meteor would find me! Just me!!!
No one else.  I know it sounds like I was running my own home movie of “ Lianna’s  Pity Party“. Really It wasn’t my intention( and those of you out there …..and you know whom you are). When you seem to consistently have the weirdest bad luck no matter how pious or careful,how much time you took to think before you did things they would just seem to explode right in front of you and way  more often than what was acceptable as the norm. It gives you the feeling like you were always navigating thru a heavily mined area and all of the mines were highly movement sensitive and you were in earthquake country! Even the ones that knew me the longest and were close to me (Family) .For example  my mother and my sister would say to me when they would hear about something that happened. First it would be my sister saying to me, “You have the weirdest t hings that seem to happen and a lot of them not good . I’ve watched and you could be standing minding your own business except maybe giving the person that you are next to your ear and listen to their woes while giving them your coat because they were cold and didn’t have one and that would be just about the time that person went inside and locked the door by accident  and can’t hear you knocking not to mention they forgot to give back the coat and that’s about the time a blizzard would strike!” She would then say with my mother nodding her head and then chiming in , “You always do that to yourself you always think with your heart first and your head coming in last and then something happens and it’s you that is the loser…. (they would both pause stare straight into my eyes) then in unison like synchronized swimming “If you would just do it like you are supposed to and use your head first then if necessary your heart….especially those kind of people  you know most of them are just taking advantage of your kindness, they know  your weakness that you think with your heart, why would they come for your help ? They must be not people you could trust because if they could be they would have better people like family or closer friends unless they are doing or have done something wrong and even their family etc. won’t  help them .!” Or the one my brother would say , “Why do you have be so nice and helping those kind of people you know the ones that have PROBLEMS! One of these days you are going to think with that heart of yours and something is going to happen to you bad like hospital or jail or something and I don’t want to be the one to have to tell mom and dad that something happened to you . If you would use your head do something for some charity then you know that the ones you are helping are okay to help, and if you do it that way then you don’t take a < /FONT>risk by being around them.  That’s the smart way! That’s using your head!! “. I know they sound like a bunch of heartless wonders but they really aren’t. They just didn’t know what to say or do for me because really their actions in life did not reflect that shallowness they couldn’t give me any answers and they couldn’t reconcile blaming me for some evil I had done was the reason for my “bad luck”.  I was like the guy on the Flintstone’s “Bad luck Schlep rock” I had some sort of black cloud hanging over just me and the reason was my heart!!  I can see why they saw that as a weakness or maybe it should be categorized as a disability or a birth defect. I admit they did have somewhat of a point in a way. I am guilty of taking people that had “problems or issues” I am guilty as sin of that! I even used to joke and say that my house was the “last way station for kids, animals and down on the luck adults , strays of all kinds. Yes, I was a sap for a hard luck story. Guilty as charged ! A soft touch? Yes guilty! I  Weak? No not because I was a sap for a hard luck story a soft touch or that I always seem to go for the underdog the only weakness I was guilty of was being weak and believing that their was something wrong with thinking with my heart first.  But I also want t o make something clear before I go on I cannot tell a lie some of those “bad luck ” things  that happened were because  it just the way things turned out no blame and others it was my poor decision for one reason or another. Ratio wise though, screw up were 25% as opposed to heart which was about 70%. Although the peanut gallery always blamed it all on me thinking with my heart first!  Due to the constant prodding from family etc. I tried very hard to change my decision making process. I would get close but no cigar! I would have it all set in my head what I was going to do the next time I heard that hard luck story, or the next time someone was down on there luck etc. etc. and then it would happen and everything that I had so carefully prepped myself for would just disappear and suddenly it was like I would go on some weird backward  autopilot. My mind would get in the fetal position with its thumb in it’s mouth and my heart wearing its Superman cape   with my own  personal  singers singing “here I am to save the day!!!”  I would go in with guns a blazing ,  almost like a like the bull in a china shop !!!! Wouldn’t you know it  there I was again asking, “I’m sorry that you are having such a hard time. Have you eaten? Do you  have a place to stay tonight?”.  As my friend Kimberly would say in a New Jersey accent, ” Can we talk?” I always thought or justified (depending on your point of view) What if that were me? or my daughter? and we were down on our luck, I would hope that someone would help me or my daughter out in that type of situation. I figured I was at least putting that energy out into the universe and with that what goes around comes around karma thing going on I may not get the perspective help back from those that I helped but that if I did get into a jam e tc. that the universe would find another “me” type of person and they would be there helping out. Of course the one or two times I used that thought or theory as a defense against my own personal “peanut gallery” I got shot down . Surprisingly on that one ,much to old peanut gallery’s chagrin I was correct.
So on life went, I still was diligently attempting to change ., There were a few  times I was successful in using my mind first but they all turned out as disasters. Just about the time I could feel myself start to go there and buy into some of my own stinking thinking , ” perhaps God or something just didn’t like me or I was being punished for some forgotten offense to the universe”. Then for no apparent reason I experienced one of those life altering, show stopping synchronistic miraculous wave kinda thing that contained uncountable small epiphanies which led to, and culminated with ,a giant monster epiphany!!!! There were also minor realizations in the double digits after ,for example , I realized that I had been carrying parts of the monster epiphany for years actually as far back as I remember! O ne of the biggest realizations  or visions(they are like aftershocks from an earthquake)  was that having those epiphanies , especially the monster,  I felt like I was handed and it  to be carried around in your pocket or purse big  A very large very intricate and quite detailed dot to dot puzzles that you could not guess what the picture was because they were so intricate and detailed and the dots contained were in the triple digits , until all the dots were located and connected in their proper order.
When I finally had “come down” and the “wave” was in a lull before the next possible wave could hit ,my mind began the process of doing that replay thing that it is so good at, going over all those times when I zigged when I should have zagged or when I took those wrong turns at Albuquerque, or I had experienced a “This is another fine mess you gotten yourself into Ollie” kind of thing. I started to see so many things in so many ways 180 degrees different than I did just 10 minutes prior. I realized  that actually the times that I was able to lead with my mind hardly ever turned out copasetic and if I really looked at things, my choices that I used my old heart, minus  the decisions that I knew were poor ones , the odds compared with the average person were better. The only real difference was that when the hear t decides, and it goes wrong for one reason or another, the places that it effects or is pervasive in your life ,have to do more so with your feelings than concrete things not that they might not affect the concrete items but that the prominent issue is your feelings.They also have a tendency towards emotional  dramas like mini soap operas.  The decisions that you make with the heart when they fail or just go
wrong they are noticed more profoundly . I believe that is
because the emotional drama makes them ,what I like to call “Louder”” mistakes. People in general remember those loud errors in judgement or discernment more so because it hits that soap opera gossip gene that is seemingly hard wired in a lot of people.
The part of the monster epiphany that struck me was one that I think is a truth that has been buried within us since  Adam and Eve . This is the part that I believe goes something like this, Somewhere we were the culprits for one  reason or another ( that is one I will perhaps save for  another blog!) that we put this separation between the Mother/Father God  maybe because like teenagers due when they are attempting to figure who they are do the opposite from what they have been taught and shown by their parental figures. You know the pendulum swings all the way to opposite before it is able to get to that middle the place of balance.
As I pondered that part of the puzzle another aspect jumped out and hit me square in the face. The separation that we chose to put between us and God we took it so that the pendulum swung far to that other side and jumped out of our hearts and into our brains or minds. This way we could not look at what it was that was happening and find and excuse for our behavior if it all went wrong, such as I was tempted by a snake, or she made me do it, or it has not scientific or logical proof etc. I also came to understand that in the mind is where the fear, envy, torment, cruelty, despair and  death were born and resided. That within our hearts things like Love , compassion, understanding forgiveness etc lived. Love is what The Source’s essence is made of which our true essence is, it is the essence of creation. If we make decisions from the mind of our heart, that even if it goes awry initially that truly in the bigger picture it was not a poor decision it was that what we were to receive was something that would expand us and that it was something important for us or someone else to learn and experience. It may have gone wrong on a physical 3 D  level or in societies opinion , but in the grand scheme of things what happened was for the highest good .  I also realized that I had actually been lucky, not disabled etc. in any way. I had been doing the process the way it was intended somewhere along the way I was one of those outside of the norm or the box kind of people, that it had been forgotten to let me in on what the human race had changed the programming to. I was born in default mode the optimum mode. At that moment I felt such peace and gratitude that it was indescribable. I knew that when I had time enough to process all of what this Monster “dot to dot” implied that letting others in on the gift of this knowledge was part of what it was about. That I was going to do that “I’ll tell two people and they will tell two people and so on” thing and along with the others that have been given this gift who would also be messengers, the understanding would would be owned by enough of us to cause “a hundredth monkey effect” and perhaps it would be or at least a big contributing factor to our survival when the time came and the transition , the “evolutionary leap” the ascension occurs. I am not sure what to label it but the “big Change” “the shift” that everybody is discussing that has been predicted, that is at the beginning of the final countdown.
Since that initial moment of realization the complete picture of what I was gifted an understanding is exponentially huge and to write about it would take months , so the complete picture I will have to dole it out in increments. How that should be done, I don’t really know.  So  I am having faith that Spirit, God will let me know (He/She has not failed me yet) .  What the crux of the message is that it is time that we turn around step back into our hearts and merge with our higher self our God self that exists in the now only and return and be who we really are and step out of this hell hole soap opera drama illusion that we created for ourselves and let the pendulum finally get back to the middle , the balance point so we can find “home”: again. I’m not sure what all it is I am to embark on from this  illusion we call reality’s fixed point in time at this pivotal moment  in the human race. I do know this , when Source lifted the gate and let me see myself who I really am and whom we all are  (we are but reflections or mirrors of each other which we are also mirrors of The Creator ,the Source, God. which ever you prefer,  made in the image and likeness His/Her children)..Who they have diligently prepared. Who they so carefully watched over. Who they were extremely patient, understanding , forgiving with Who they always without fail proved that their love for me was unconditional, limitless and timeless (forever) I saw the perfection of us and all of creation and that we all  need to see understand and own the perfection of who we are. In that I understood for myself that really it has always been my deep down soul desire , that I was seeing with extreme clarity, To express my gratitude for the gift of life, Glorify my Creator, express from the heart , the “mind” of the heart my perfect unique self and do so with complete faith in that I am the child o f God and that if whatever my choices in life are that it is imperative ( no lame excuses allowed) that it is the heart that is the key.  If we do that merge and step back into the heart that what we do will always be for our highest good and the highest good of all. That if you look into to your core you will know that this is a real truth, undisputable truth. That if we as a human race pull our heads out of our own buttocks , stop being in the dark, be willing to own the truth of it all wake up and smell the coffee, end the illusion the nightmare that we created , loose the soap operas,for lack of a better word,  ‘the ego”, get out of our own way , it will be as easy and simple as opening an unlocked door and stepping over the threshold . to give us back ourselves and be and know and own that we are perfect beings and that children of God is not a metaphor it is literal.
Now that I have shared this story and the message from spirit , I would ask you for one more indulgence that really you have nothing to loose except a few extra moments of your time. The favor I ask is that you ponder, ruminate on what you just read with an open mind and heart. If you should accept the basic premise as “a real genuine all encompassing  truth”: that you pass this gift of an understanding (in a way like the movie “pay it forward”) If you should not be ready to be woken up to own the understanding of this genuine truth , that you keep puzzle in your memory banks and perhaps at a later date try and ponder it again. You really have nothing to loose but everything to gain  God Bless you, Love an light to you all.~Lianna
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