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          We are honored to have the amazing Nancy Brown Joining us to talk about her passion, her life, her mission. Full Moon Farm is an organization dedicated to the well being of the wolfdog (wolf hybrid). Situated on 17 beautiful mountain acres in Black Mountain, NC, we operate as a federally recognized 501(c)(3) not-for-profit organization for abused and refused wolfdogs who find themselves in need of love, shelter, and care through no fault of their own.

         Full Moon Farm provides a safe haven for animals that cannot be placed into homes for the rest of their lives. Their rescued wolfdogs come from animal control agencies, closed breeding situations and occasionally, an owner in crisis. They evaluate each animal upon intake and work with them at their level of comfort. Some animals are “hands off” and they respect their choice, as well as that of the animals that crave human interaction. Their goal is to enrich the lives of the residents, allowing them to reach their highest potential. Support by donation or sponsorship makes that task possible. Though they may be abused or neglected, homeless because of death or divorce, they are all God’s Creatures and worthy of a lifetime of respect. Don’t miss this amazing woman and the beautiful and awsome animals that she dedicates herself to rescue hear her inspiring story this Tuesday on http://www. BlogTalkRadio.com/Illuminationsoflight at 8pmPST, 9PMST
         Nancy recently appeared on the Lifetime Channel, On the Road with Austin and Santino – http://www.mylifetime.com/shows/on-the-road-with-austin-santino/video/full-episodes/season-1/episode-13-pawty-time. Also, wolfdogs were featured in an article on Zootoo – http://www.zootoo.com/zootootv/v/petpulse640wolfdogmyths2  Full Moon Farm is on Facebook – Please support the Cause – Full Moon Farm. We need you.  http://apps.facebook.com/causes/279502  Join our Group:  http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=25616163419  Full Moon Farm is on Youtube as well, but the video request must be entered as Full Moon Farm + wolf dogs, as there is another Full Moon Farm and it deals with horses.
        DON’T MISS THIS AMAZING WOMAN  and the beautiful and noble  animals that she dedicates herself to rescue. Hear her inspiring story this Tuesday November 23, 2010 on Illuminations Of Light Live! at 8 PM PST, 9PM MST on www.BlogTalkRadio.Com/Illuminationsoflight

 

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Greetings and Salutations One and All! It has been an amazing time of change and rebirth. Many people’s lives have changed, and in the immediate it looks bleak but there is a rainbow after every storm.  How we choose to see the challenges and they are many, is how we will weather that storm and the aftermath from it. It is for sure one of the most difficult challenges in life when your entire world changes in a matter of moments, or hours.  The good news is that just as quickly as it seems to all fall apart there is a solution to the issue at hand or a new door that opens, a new road, a new beginning. It is never easy changes in life, especially when they seem to come to your face back to back to back, but hold steady and take things one moment at a time when it seems that you cannot breath for all the blows you have been given.  Talk it out as much as you can with good friends who do not mind listening. Go ride your bike or get quiet with God in your own personal way and get it out of your system. Allow the emotions to ride through you like walking through a fog. Let them go and realize and accept that what you are dealing with is not a mountain, it only feels like it. See it as a speed bump, knowing that you are on the right track, because the law of opposites always comes first. Do not give up on yourself. Do not give up on God and the Universe. Do your best to say thank you for those things you do have, not focus on what is lacking or now lost. It is in the gratitude that prayers and miracles can work along with a little faith and some action that you do have control of.

I will share with all of you that this past two weeks has been a true test of endurance in faith walking. As many things as one could imagine possibly going wrong did and then some. But all the while I kept telling myself that it would all work out. I had several moments of total breakdown to release the shockwaves that had hit my heart, mind, body and soul. But as I have advised to all of you, I allowed myself to feel those feelings as a part of the response to the stimuli but once that was done, I started to focus on those things I did have in my life that were not broken or gone, those things which survived and needed to be nurtured and valued. I took action on those things which were within my control and asked for help from others un ashamed because it was truly needed in the moment and so grateful that it was there when I did ask. For all the things that went wrong, it could have been so much worse! And as the challenges presented themselves there was someone there to pick up the baton and run with it until the goal of moving me was completed. Now the job of getting me settled and working is at hand. No longer a desire but a need. I had set out on this path to begin anew, to expand myself and my horizons. I made it through when the odds were totally against me making that happen. Moments of doubt in myself in everything and everybody, but they were moments not days or months. The ebb and flow moved quickly and things continue to move with a swiftness I have not experienced since my awakening. I am not perfect, I have my moments of weakness and anger and frustration like all the rest, but I do my best now, to really seize that opportunity to change my perspective and actions around when challenges arise. I stay in the right now. What can I do about this right now? If it’s nothing then fretting will not help at all. So I may retreat and meditate, or write, or sing or walk or sit in the sun, something to change how I am looking at things. Taking a moment to come to a balance. That is not an easy thing to do when you just want to run and hide from the world wondering why you woke up this morning. Not an easy thing to do when you feel like the train has just plowed into your chest and you cannot breath over and over again.

Change always means the death of something and the rebirth of a new thing. It is never the same but if it was, we would not grow, it would be boring and stagnant if there were no adversity in the world. This is why we are grateful for even the challenges in life. Yes life changing. Yes very scary because we do not know what lies before us. We have to remember that it could be something even more wonderful then we ever imagined! It may look the same but it could be better and stronger! YOU are better and stronger having walked through that fire! Now you might be able to help guide another though that same scary moment when they come to it in their walk! You never know until you try it. You never know unless you risk walking through that door of uncertainty and discomfort. Living life requires that you take the risks. Failure is only one step closer to success. We never learn if we don’t try. For me, I worked on the show, the websites, unpacking boxes and organizing one box at a time, I had to rearrange a few things and borrow a friend’s car for awhile, I have to figure out a means of income that will sustain my son and I. When I stepped back and took things as I could, what I could do I did, what I couldn’t do I put off until I could do it with success and clarity. I am being very contemplative in the steps that I make and not doing it from a place of fear or desperation. I have done my best, not totally successful at not reacting but responding. I have remembered to be loving with myself and others and to be grateful for all that I have. To remember that no matter how dark it seems, God has never let me down. Even when things didn’t logically make sense, it will always work out for the highest good of all. I try to remember to be humble and compassionate in my walk. To do deeds in love without expectation. To give until I can give no more of myself, my belongings, my time, my knowledge… and if I do these things, then all the rest will fall into place somehow.

Stand up for what is right. Believe in yourself when no one else does. Remember that we are never alone even though the road can be lonely. Life is meant to be lived. We are meant to be happy whatever that looks like to you. I know that God has not brought me through the many things in life that I have endured to have me fail now. I have to believe that he loves me that much and that I have to love myself that much. I am thankful that I have people around me to remind me to believe in my ability to carry on no matter what. To land on my feet and make lemonade out the lemons I get handed. I do my best to find the serenity in any given moment. The beauty of the sunrise, the peace of the sunset. The simple things in life that make me cherish the life I have and give me the strength to make it through to the next challenge or task at hand and to give me the stamina to endure those moments when life is not fun or happy. I encourage all of you to hear my tales and thoughts and see if you see some of yourself or someone you know in these words and perhaps for a moment see a new perspective a different set of eyes. And that my hope is you find some comfort in knowing that it will all be OK and will work out just as it’s supposed to. Staying in the now, keeps your sanity. Leave for tomorrow what is tomorrows today has enough of its own.

Share with us if you will some of your moments of strength and challenge and how you overcame in your journey. It is good to share so that others may gain from your experience.

I thank you all for your time and consideration of these musings of mine. Be blessed and nothing less always.

Until next time. Adieu. xox Kimberly

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Greetings and Salutations! One and All! I do hope that the week has been good for you so far!

Today I want to talk about the coming of a new day!

For those of us who are awake or partially awake, it has become difficult to navigate the energies and most of us have done beautifully!

It seems that the heaviness of these purges are going to kill us or make us want to kill ourselves.  It is in these moments when all of the tools you have been given throughout your lifetime have to be pulled from the magic bag of tricks.  When the world is falling apart around you for no apparently good reason that we turn to the one thing that can and will help. Our Creator.

I believe that in most cases we bring things to ourselves for our own growth and expansion, but too there have been times when I have been placed in very surreal experiences that had absolutely nothing to do with me but more to do with the people who had been placed in my life. In some instances that meant soul retrieval and soul rescue for those who had been captured in time and space and replaced with some other entity or entities controlling the body. Similar to a possession. Some would say this is time for me to be put into a looney bin and others quietly understand what it is I am talking about.

My life has taken me to the very lowest of lows being in the streets with the bums and the crazy folk, but it was there too that some of my brightest angels on earth were found and helped me navigate that reality so that I could survive. I have been what society would consider a success as well, making money hand over fist but not being responsible with it, not using it to help others. So it was taken away from me almost over night. I was then put in the streets with two children. I have lost it all and rebuilt it over 7 times so far in my life.  I am thankful for the good and the bad, even though in my human moments I have great difficulty in seeing those times as good things. I am still learning to not judge things including my own actions or the actions of others. I am learning to release the need for expectation and entitlement. Similar to the story of JOB in the christian teachings, the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away, all is always for our highest good and we should be grateful for it all good and bad for if it was not for that Creator we would not exist. I believe that no matter the adversity that we endure in our lifetime, it is forgotten on the other side. What is left is the expanded consciousness and deeper love.

So it comes down to FAITH. Finding Answers In The Heart. For it is there in the heart where our creator, high self, guides, other aspects of ourselves in other realities I think they call them dopplegangers it all begins in that place in the heart that we hear them, feel them, experience or re-experience them. I would not allow the bird to go without food or shelter, why would you think I would want less for you? I know that my needs will be met. I know that the universe and that being I call God, loves me beyond any love any human being could possibly express. I have been with Him. I have felt him within me, my body mind and soul. I will only ever ultimately trust that being that resides in all things. People ask well what religion are you? I tell them I am all and none of them. They look at me like I am crazy. But I remember a time when this planet was still new when there was only ONE and nothing more. We all worked in harmony and loved our creations. Delighted in what we could create and did it with joy and love. The planet that I remember had love as it’s main frequency. Not to say that this planet is different, but certainly the frequencies are.

I have faith, even though I find myself in circumstances which would send the average person into a complete and total depression, even in my sadness I give thanks that the solutions be brought forth with ease and grace, and that it is perfect in all ways for all concerned and the good of all in general. I have FAITH that it will all work out just as it is supposed to for even if it is not what I may want or THINK is the right thing, I KNOW that the universe has got my back no matter what set of circumstances I find myself in. In a weird way there is peace in knowing that I still have to do my part but that the universe is there like a full orchestra to back me up on that stage of life.

Yes when it rains it pours, but bust out your seeds and water barrels and capture the moment and grow something beautiful when a new day dawns! Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death….he leadeth me to green pastures and cool waters….we all have to walk through that valley several hundred times in our lives. We choose to sit and have a picnic and camp out there, it’s like my son’s vice principal said to my son this morning, “There are two words which both begin with VIC…. do you know what those words are? Victim or Victor, which are you going to be? A victim who does nothing and takes apathy as their route in life and does nothing to move up or forward or you can be the Victor and walk through it and just do it!”  Words of wisdom from a woman who’s job was just cut because of budget cuts. She moved her whole family from Washington to Colorado and they cut her job! Inspirational coming from her. A great woman, mother and administrator, the district has their head on backwards for eliminating her position.

So as children or as adults, we all have those moments when life throws us a curve ball, if you are paying attention you can turn that into a grand slam or you can get hit in the head and wonder what happened.

I do all I can to help the universe make my life the greatest it can be, and people say even with all that you go through you always land on your feet and you always maintain a positive attitude. It is said that when we smile it releases serotonin and gives us a better outlook, so the fake it til you make it does work on a chemical level. I choose to be a VICTOR not a VICTIM to life or circumstance or people. I will walk through this valley and lay down by the cool waters. It is in the lack of acceptance that we suffer. The sooner we accept it the sooner we can stop asking why and ask instead what is the solution, what am I going to do with this? Ask and if you get no answer then trust that it is not time yet, the universe has not lined the perfect scenario up for you, you do your part, look for that job, go to school, be doing what you CAN in the moment, if there is nothing you can do more or do about another’s decision or a company going under, then do what you can …. clear your space, clear your thinking whatever that entails. Sometimes doing NOTHING is the answer. The universe wants you to rest and heal your body or spirit. The wisdom of silence. Saying nothing, walking away is the answer sometimes. No matter how much it hurts. It will be better. It has to, for as bad as things get there is always a rainbow after the storm, there is always a flower that blooms from the muddied grounds.

These are times of great change. We must be able to ride the waves and not let them crush us. Even in stormy waters and it feels like the gasps are fewer and further between. You become a stronger swimmer. Ride the waves as best you can, lean on each other and support one another for it is difficult for all, but we can bring it in with ease and grace by showing that to each other. Remember always what you put out you get back. Break things down to the core issues and not the symptoms. People react out of fear, what is the fear, address it. What can you do about it, what steps can you take to change it or make it different? You can do whatever you want to do, but it takes baby steps in that general direction to get there.

This time is about personality clean up and changing of perspectives, and the cool thing about that is that each new day brings a new opportunity for happiness and joy. Each new day gives us the chance to help another. Each new day we get to learn something new. Each new day we have the chance to laugh and smile.  There is a coming of a new day for you and I. Leave tomorrow for tomorrow. Do not let fear stop you from achieving your happiness. It serves no one and is a waste of the gift of life. Life is all about the Love. Happiness. Joy. Serenity. Peace.

Life is short. It can end or change in a split second. Don’t waste it. Fix it. Make it right. Love is all that matters. The great thing about it is you can do that right NOW, this second. Change your mind. Do something different. Don’t try, just do it. Because you can you know. It’s not that hard once you take the steps. Today is the new day! Right now! Right here! This moment! Make it count, make it memorable, make it great! If everyone is flipping out around you , that is their problem you can still be joyful with you. Pray that they too will come around and come back to you, for miracles never cease. Strange things happen in strange times. Love always finds it’s way back to itself. So do not look at the loss, look what you have, give thanks. Keep the faith, do your best to not panic and go to the other side of the valley. God takes care of us, we are all worthy and deserving of love from Him and each other. Let those who cannot do that go. Until they can stop thinking of themselves and begin to think of others as well. Do YOU! Do what YOU can and leave the rest to God. You will see that if you surrender it, it will work out ok. Promise. But you have to leave it there. Because every time you worry about it or think about it, you are taking it back and have to give it up again. So say thank you for you know its done.

Have a grand weekend everyone! I love you all !!! You make the journey fun!

Love n Light in Oneness of Heart,

Kimberly

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Greetings and Salutations! One and All! Well I will tell you this has been a very dynamic week for me personally with all the energies going wild and bouncing off of everyone and everything! Some awesome new stuff was born out of this chaotic energy but it was very difficult to ride this wave!

One of the things I have been learning to do is to be aware. We touched on this in the last entry on mindfullness and we gave you an exercise to play with over the week. How did that go for you? Did you start to notice any changes within your being?

Dr. Bruce Lipton, talks in his book, ” The Biology of Belief”, about how our ” Perceptions” can absolutely have a profound effect on our physical and emotional well being. How we “see” our world through our filters of experiences can be skewed and absolutely create real physical issues. It’s been said, there is your truth, my truth and THE truth. The fact of the matter is, all of us have these experiential filters that cause us to have the experience of something loving or something fearful. If we are in a state of fear, our physical bodies go into a protection mode and we stop growing, we lower the immune system, and deplete from other systems in the body that we use for growth, because on a very primal level we are telling the body to prepare for fight or flight. When our bodies do this, extra blood etc. is sent to the muscles to get ready to run or fight. When we come from a place of bliss or peace or love, our bodies are relaxed and in the mode of growth. The very interesting thing which I found amazing in the ” Biology of Perception” was the tidbit that all of our habits, and beliefs are stored in the “subconscious” not the “conscious” mind. That these two are like two different people. The “subconscious” is very logically based and likes order and is “timeless” it does not know past or future, only current input in the NOW moment, it does not understand otherwise. The “conscious” mind is the part of us that says, “Hey let’s go check that out and get some new experience!” It is the free flowing creative side that doesn’t mind chaos, and getting stuck in the past or the future creates issues if we address issues from this perspective. This is the problem with self help books. They address the conscious mind not the subconscious. You have to address both to gain true healing and balance.

So what are some ways that we begin to reprogram the subconscious mind to be in harmony with our conscious mind? Well there are many tools out there which can be used to achieve this goal. As with all things intent and commitment are key. You have to have a willingness to achieve this. Now at times the subconscious is not ready to accept that change.

How can you tell if the subconscious is ready or not? The human body is equipt with its own bio feed back equiptment! It’s fantastic! Kinesiology is a wonderful tool to help assess and diagnose an issue that may be blocking healing. This same idea can be used to correct thinking and perception.

With regard to mindfullness, where are you feeling it in your body. Last week we had you note 20 things in a room when you found yourself triggered. This week I want you to be aware of where you are feeling your feelings in your own body. What physical signals are you getting from your own body (natural bio feed back) about how you are feeling.

If you wish, take this a step further, and write it down, so you can see in writing, what time of day, what are the triggers, what is the core emotion that is associated with that, it can be simple like feels good or feels bad. By creating this record you begin to see the patterns of your own responses and how your body is affected. By doing this you can begin to reprogram the thinking patterns which were learned at a young age.

I am going to post some videos which far better explain this process of kinesiology and the ways you can use this modality to shift yourself and your perceptions.

Dee Wallace shared a wonderful exercise she did with her seminars, that she would give everyone a PlayDough ball and tell them to create something. Everyone would. Then she would instruct them to mush it up into a ball and create something else.  Her analogy being, we as humans complicate things, that changing our life and our reality is as easy as mushing up that playdough and starting another creation. Instead, we like to hold that creation, drag it around with us everywhere showing it off to everyone etc not doing anything to change that thinking.

So practice being aware of what you are feeling, and where you are feeling it in your own body. Use your own natural biofeedback to help you identify what the challenge areas are within your own being.

Watch these videos on some tools to use to begin to make real changes in your life, in your “perceptions” and beliefs! Let us know what you think!

Until next time! Blessings from me and mine to you and yours in the heart of Oneness. Namaste~!

This first set of videos are from Bruce Lipton, he explains the biological reasons that positive thinking works and how.

I will only post the first one, there are seven in the series! Watch the entire set!

This second set is part II of the lecture featuring Rob Williams, the creator of PSYCH-K, who gives wonderful tools to remove old programming and replace it with new improved ideas that are more in alignment with where you want to be!

This is the “Psychology of Change” by Rob Williams this is part 1 of 8 and you will want to see all 8!

This is a different take on his method

This is a short one on self testing

This again another version of self testing from the folks at enjoyabetterworld.com

This is Dee Wallace on Creative Consciousness, interview on Braveheart Women

This is part 1 of 3, this book is dynamite! You will want to see all of this interview!

Finally Gary Zukav and Linda Francis talk briefly about Authentic Power!

I do hope you find these videos helpful, I know I certainly have.

Blessings all until we meet again!


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lluminations of Light LIVE! Presents Stanley Victor Paskavich to the show March 30, 2010 9pm MST on blogtalkradio.com/illuminationsoflight

Stanley was raised in Glendridge, Illinois, the fourth son of five to Stanley Paskavich and Dora Mae Marie Paskavich. He graduated in 1977 at Sandoval High School and worked as a janitor there until he joined the USAF in 1979. He got out of the Air Force for medical reasons in 1991, shortly after running a shift in the Dover Deleaware Port Mortuary.

His book Stantasyland is compiled from different times and beliefs in his life. Some of the poems go back 30 years or more. He writes about his life, himself, religion, and spirituality, along with some other political things thrown in for good measure and some interesting perspectives on life. He states in his own words, “often I write per perspective. I don’t intend to convince, confirm, or condemn with my writings, just possibly stimulate some different lines of thought. I respect anyone who is convinced in their belief and convictions, and/or belief systems as long as they do not use it as a weapon against another. Truth, Peace, Tranquility (TPT) Stan”

Stan is an amazing survivor and visionary and has a lot to say about alot of things.  He is difficult to follow for some and amazingly inspirational to others. He is a humble person who has seen more then most in his short time upon Mother Earth. After handling dead bodies for several months, it had a profound affect on his world and his thinking. He is a walk in which is something that most do not know about him. We will be discussing this on the show with him and about some of his views of the cosmos and life in general. It’s simple but complex much like Stan himself.

We are pleased and honored to welcome Stan D’Man to our show! March 30, 2010 9pm MST on blogtalkradio.com/illuminationsoflight! Don’t miss it!

More recent musings from Stan D’Man!
“I was listening to Coast to Coast AM this morning on Paltalk. There was a guest speaking about NDE’s ‘Near Death Experiences’. I’ve had several NDE’s. I’ve never seen the tunnel of lights. I’ve never seen the loved ones welcoming me home. But when I awoke I realized that I was having a NLE a ‘Near Life Experience’. I believe many of us are. So I suggest we might want to try harder to live every moment to it’s fullest. Because like they say. “It’s not a dress rehearsal.”
You have seen his poetry featured on my pages and now is being considered for a poster for the NRA and of course Stantasyland.!
Stan is one of the most interesting people I know and his views on walk-ins and war and life will definitely make you think! So be sure to tune in this Tuesday Night 9pm MST and 10pm CST for Illuminations of Light LIVE! For more information on Stanley V. Paskavich please click here. To purchase his book click here. To visit Stan’s Stantasyland homepage click here.


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Greetings and Salutations One and All! Today I would like to discuss the importance of positive thinking.  I would like to begin with positive thinking doesn’t mean a 24 hour a day thing, that would make you extreme and robotic and not human at all. The truth of it is, we are humanoids that experience emotions and encounters which trigger emotional responses so that we are given the opportunities to grow individually and as a group.  All things are energy. Nothing more or less. These energies are based in frequencies and when plucked can cause quite a reverberation for all universes to hear. This being said, energy of thought is like plucking that string or set of strings to make a harmonic sound or a chord if you will. Thus is the song of manifestation in the three D world.  When you send out a thought it goes out to the universe good or bad and it will respond to give you what you ask for. This ability is coming much faster then ever before. Understand that it is the thinking part which plucks the cord so it’s important that you cancel out negative thoughts as quickly as they come to your mind. Let them pass through and change them in golden light or purple light and give them to the heavens for transmutation.  Another lady recently said that she sees all her negative thoughts as she is standing next to a river as leaves fallen from the trees to the river of life and sees them floating down stream and transmuting in the water. That is another great visual. The concept here is to release the negative stinkin thinin from your being. When we send enough of these microcosmic negative thoughts into the collective consciousness we are creating energy to feed not such pleasant results. Of course we can diffuse it with the thinking of waves calming in the ocean to a gentle lap against the shores but it’s easier to just be aware of the fact that we feed those larger snowballs of negativity when we do not cancel it out.

Positive thinking in a world full of negative influences and banter is not an easy thing to do. We are programmed from a very young age to think negative thoughts about ourselves and the world around us. Children are not born with things like fear and anger, those things come as they learn from their own environments and the things we stimulate them with. So we have to basically re-think that far back our own thought patterns. Recognizing our own defense patterns and mechanisms. Recognizing when we are living our story and not our present. Recognizing when we are blaming instead of owning our own stuff. Being able to rise above all of that and come to a place of grace and forgiveness is a whole other story! But it is when we are able to come to these states of grace that we are no longer in conflict with the inner shadows of our human nature and programming. We are coming from a place of being and allowing that does not have conflict only peace and harmony and love.

It takes conscious effort to achieve this control over a very active mind and ego. These things are there for a purpose and they do serve us, however, they do not control us, we control it. The same is true of the emotional body. Positive thinking is a huge part of healing and beginning to come to a place of self love and centeredness.

I could go into all types of reasons on a physical body level why positive thinking is important, however in a nutshell our thoughts, music, words we hear or use, effect our DNA and genetic stuff as well as our overall well being. A recent interview I heard with Dee Wallace she puts an interesting spin on stuff, she said that when we experience trauma, that our feminine and masculine energies become imbalanced and freeze in a state of fear and we get stuck in that fear, her suggestion was to with love and gentleness and talk with your inner child let them know that you are in charge now and that you will keep them safe to follow you in expanding yourself to your greatest potential in a positive light and that you will keep that inner child safe. This is the ultimate trust and safety we can achieve, to trust ourselves. To move through and release and reprogram that we do not love ourselves or others. Forgiveness and grace around these situations. Remember that how things appear on the surface to wait and look beneath. There is lots of ILLUSION n delusion running amuck. Tricks upon the eyes and minds eyes so be aware and discern in love and joy whenever possible, see the best within all beings and things. Even the crystals are being affected so it is important that we keep a positive thought whenever possible, to dive into the negative lower vibrational only perpetuates it. So if you are feeling panicky or in a place of fear then think of a place of serenity. You can go to your happy place simply by taking a few deep breaths and thinking differently. Put a happy song in your ears, your mind, your heart and soul. Smile and think of happy things even when you are sad. Realize pain lies in dreams and the past, neither are the now. Know that you are loved and supported by many angels, guides and beings now and always. We control our thoughts and emotions, what do you choose. Release the expectations that people will do as they say see past where they are coming from fear and see the light within them as they too are growing and expanding in their awareness and consciousness, allow them to be and recognize it is theirs and you do not have to own it or pick it up and look at it unless you so CHOOSE. Smiles. I choose to be love. I choose to be joy. I choose to be expansion always in the light. I choose to see things in a different way and be ok that I am the way I am now in this moment.

Make it a great day everyone! Whenever you read this! There is no time like the present! LOL.

xox Kimberly

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Greetings and Salutations! One and all! It really is amazing how when you begin to really live in the flow of the universe how things just become very synchronistic. Now this does not always mean that all outcomes will be as you want them as you envisioned them. Sometimes things come in ways that we least expect them.

For me, when we have to go through a radical acceptance of something which is outside of our control it is difficult at times to get back up on the horse. I have endured many blows or waves of change within the past two weeks. Almost all my messages from the universe have been related to how to move through the waves of sadness and to stay in the moment and find the happiness within. It has been a lot of hard work on my part to do this. We so easily drift into the past or the future, but to stay exactly in the moment is difficult. This situation involved the deepest kind of pain, losing true love. Problem is only one of us felt that way apparently. So what do you do as your life shatters before you and everything you hold dear is ripped from your world?

Well, one of the techniques I have been trying out is to stop and become aware of my surroundings. Most emotions are triggered from a memory or a thought which is not actually in this moment. So by looking and really consciously noting what is around you can pull you outside of yourself long enough to move through the wave of emotion. Another thing I have been doing is trying to find laughter within my day. Watch a funny movie, read a funny joke, in my case come up with hysterical commercials. The more I stay focused on what my life is about and what I have going on in my world, the less I am thinking about him and what he is doing or thinking, is he hurting like me or has he turned off all emotion and will endure the pain later when it bubbles to the surface? I do not want to waste my day or my time thinking about that stuff, I have a child who is in crisis right now, and I have to move. A move that is not going to be just a down the street deal but pretty far away, looking to sell my belongings type of move. Some say that if you are running then you will still have to deal with it. Yes this is true, however, I have other factors to consider, money being one of them. My health being another of them. I have built up somewhat of a support system where I am however the rents in my area have skyrocketed and I can no longer afford where I am staying. A simple fact of life, the cost of living has increased and my income has decreased. So we are off to the next exciting leg of our adventure. The bottom line to all that is, I really do not have time to pine and drool over what has been lost or what I do not have in my life.

The fact of the matter is, I didn’t need him before I met him, I certainly do not need him now. Needs and desires are two different things. Just as love and partners are. Relationships require a certain amount of energy and effort and right now, I just do not have it to give anymore and apparently neither does he. I have my own health issues. He has his. I am trying to get my business resurrected from before a brain injury four years ago. That in and of itself is enough to keep my focus occupied. This person has his own issues. I still love him, that will never change, but I require my relationships to go both ways, he’s not able to achieve this at this time. I can wait yes, but really what for?? A man who cannot commit? Who cannot make up his mind that after three years he wants to be with me or not? I’m sorry I do not want to have to be someones shelter, counselor, mother figure or tell them how to be civil and polite and honest and loving, not my job to train a 45 year old how to be a real person. They will have to learn their way how.  I have a world to conquer people to help out there and there are six billion people on this planet, I will find someone who can deal with me, love me, work with me, encourage me and be respectful and kind to me always. I should not have to work 70% of the relationship and get 30% in return.That’s not a partnership that’s an imbalanced situation that had to give and who knows if it will change if this persons life changes in the future. I know they still love me, they just cannot handle me right now. Or themselves either for that matter. No ones fault, the fault doesn’t exist. Just is what is right now. Not time. So we both accept that. I’m sure that we will always love one another as we loved each other before we came into this life. I do hope someday he catches up with me. I pray that he does make the changes in his world someday for his sake. For his family’s sake.

The universe has been speaking loudly to change my thinking for everyone to change our thinking to NOW. Being in this moment of the present. The joy is there! Right there! Right now! Within you! Sadness lies in the past. In the memory. In the story of what the other person did to you! They did nothing except be themselves, how they are right now. Pick up the pieces. One at a time. Be aware of feeling the feelings but allow them to pass through like a breeze brushes past you standing outside. Love yourself and forgive yourself. For you are worthy. There is no fault. Only what is. Acceptance is where the struggle and the pain lie. The sooner that you come to a place of acceptance the sooner the suffering part stops. Doesn’t mean you have to like what is being handed to you, but it does mean that you have to deal with it and accept that it is how it is. That is where the stopping in the moment works, pulling your thinking out of the memories of the past or the  what could be if’s…..and get into what is actually around you. Look at things and study them, you will see that the moment or wave of emotion passes much more quickly and you can get into your right mind quick enough to pull out of it.

I do not have all the answers here, just that these are some of the techniques I use in my own world. In the day to day things that seem to happen whether or not I instigated them or not, some of it had to change in my world, it was no longer serving my desires or my needs, so it is with life, all about the change, and surfing those waves instead of being crushed by them. Not staying in the moments of sadness or emotional turmoil. If you want something to change, then change it and do your best to move forward in life.

It’s always sad to say goodbye, but in the native world you only say those words when someone passes onto the great spirit. They say farewell because we never know when our paths will cross again. So for now, this is where my head is, I will not have internet access for the next two days and this post will be the last for the moment. I will be writing still as I have nothing else to do but work on the various projects that I have going. So there will probably be several posts at once when i get access to the net again in a couple of days.

As it is I am in the coffee shop getting this posting out as we type. Life is funny. Full of synchronicities watch for them, they will point you to where your thinking should be.  Be well until next time! Love n Light and Blessings to you all. Kimberly

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