Feeds:
Posts
Comments

Posts Tagged ‘faith’

Blind faith, that is the message that God and the universe keeps telling me, no shouting to me over and over again for at least for the last year or so. At first I didn’t realize the implications of those two words have on my life and really now I know, on the whole of humanity. I received this message one evening while meditating . I wasn’t asking for or even thinking about faith or anything so noble, I was in the middle of some emotional self inflicted lame drama that I was dealing with. At the time it seemed like some tragedy but in the grand scheme of things it really was no big deal except to me. I was in the process of clearing some stuck energy, and in the stillness of the void that I was enjoying at the time suddenly this very loud chorus of the angels, guides and last but certainly the least the Mother/Father God those two words were given to me very loud. My first response in my head was Huh? Wow where did that come from ? You talking to me? Then with a another louder blast of the chorus they said, “It is about blind faith, it is time , it is and will be the key that is very important for all to have blind faith!”. I replied, ” alrighty then … um A couple questions.. Have blind faith about what or in what? and a key to what? Please clarify okay?”. Then they responded again,” It is about blind faith you must learn to have it and pass the message it is one of the keys”.  I was getting a little angry and got an attitude and thought sarcastically, ” Can you get any more cryptic? That was about as clear as mud!!@! “. I asked again and this time I opened my eyes coming out of my meditative state and said it out loud and with selfish impatient annoying overtones,” What the heck am I  to have blind faith about and key to what? …What message am I supposed to pass on? Could you please stop the cryptic thing I’ve never been a fan of the deciphering thing that you all do, you know I don’t do that hinting thing tha t you guys do Please clarify straight and to the point please, I don’t have time for this I’m clearing negative stuck energy here!” In other words ,”I’m working Here okay!!”. They replied with great patience for my naivete, “When you ready you will know and understand.” again with the cryptic stuff , so I just blew it off and went back to clearing. It wasn’t over, little did I know, this message that they had just introduced, planted the seed with was just the preface not even the introduction. They (and when I say they I mean the aforementioned chorus) said this over and over and over in fact they have hounded me with it ever since. Thank God they did help me with the clarification stuff and as hind sight is 20/20, I know now why they didn’t clarify it at first I had to figure some of for myself to have me realize the importance of the message that they had handed to me. I know that I’m not the only one that they entrusted with it like any message from God , Spirit especial ly if the message is important their are many messengers bringing the same message because their are so many people that need to hear the message and own it and each person has a way they will get it and a way they won’t, so their has to be many messengers as many as there are ways to say it so everyone will get the message and own it  . You know each person has their own way expressing things and the person expressing and the person receiving will be matched up. Maximum coverage for maximum success. Well I digress (I have a tendency to go off on tangents so please bear with me) This blind faith came to me in a myriad of ways like when I flicking through channels on the T. V.  some little blurb from a commercial would jump out with the message or I would be reading book or magazine etc. and some sentence would jump out. (You know they stopped doing that burning bush thing or that loud booming voice from the sky thing with Abraham and Moses, they have kept up with the times and do it more sophisticated and sublimely, you have to pay attention, they want us to keep us on our toes or they do it for entertainment I’m not sure LOL! )Anyway, I kept getting the message and each time they would give me more of an understanding of it and they would give me some example in the 3D so as to reinforce the understanding. It has just been recently that I have completed the course and graduated so now it is time and just in the nick if time, (they always go down to wire…you know that divine timing thing that happens, I felt like a little kid sometimes always asking, “are we there yet?” ) . The crescendo of the piece that I was being taught to play came about 2 or 3 weeks ago with full 3D technicolor vision of the schematic of integral  and most critical part blind faith was to play in the grand transformation or the ascension process, Mayan calendar ,end of times ( or whatever name you want to call (depending on your belief system and perception of reality) the thing that is happening to and around to planet earth and all of its inhabitants). I want to state here that as I got this message in parts ,I need to deliver it in parts so that you who are reading this will have time to process this and own it and understand all of it. It will definitely not take a year because you all I know are not that slow on the uptake and I don’t do that cryptic thing very well and you get to read it instead of getting a chorus of invisible spiritual beings in your head that you have to take the time to see if it is for real or just insanity, just going there thing. Having said that, I will tell you the vision of what I saw on a spiritual and dimensional level and energetic level as well that has started to take place just recently due to the fact we have begun the last leg of the transformation that we are experiencing. The powers that be that have been helping us and watching over us s ince the beginning for thousands perhaps millions of years the “end is nigh ” all there efforts for so long , this the last hurrah before showtime. everything must be in place so that all will not be lost (meaning us). What the vision was to show me that the highest order of beings who all the other dimensional gate keepers and guardians and all the beings from the other planets all those in the universe that have had our back so to speak , what has just started to happen that the higher order that I spoke about I call them “the Celestials” this includes several types of beings which for the time being the Celestials will suffice as to what to call them , have arrived . What I was shown was 12 beings of light have come and have surrounded the planet and have linked and have individually and as a group have begun to spin and an angelic looking being has taken to being in this ring around the rosie spinning celestial group the center over the planet and this sort of bubble tha t is shaped like a diamond with and hour glass shape inside the diamond has taken this angelic being with six sets of wings in to the center to where the narrow part of the hour glass is lined up with where you would have the angelic being’s heart be in the center of the chest. There is a large intense beam or tube of light that seems to come from the void of space and is being funneled through the bottom and the top of the diamond and then the hourglass and into the heart of the angelic  and then out again in smaller beams or tubes to each of the 12 Celestials heart (I’m guessing as that it is hard to tell since they are spinning) and back and to the earth and when it comes out of the 12 the light is transformed to a pulsing  rainbow colored light that I seemed to have knowing that is on every level of the spectrum of light. I know that doesn’t make sense and how does that tie into blind faith? Well blind faith in our God selves  and in the love that the crea tor and all these beings that have been with us having our back helping us to do what it is that we are to do have for us. For the planet to survive for humanity to survive and take the most important role that we have in the universe. We must wake up en masse as many as they can so that the grandest of all 100th monkey effect can take place and all will Good with the universe. So there is where I will leave this until next time same blog channel same blog time …To be continued until we meet again. You all come back now you hear!  All will be revealed…..(trust and believe have blind faith that it will all be worth it! Thank you for your patience!)

Advertisements

Read Full Post »

Waiting on pins and needles all day while the immediate threats of the day subsided. I have family outside of Santiago, Chili and my son in Honolulu in the Navy. So today was a bit of a pins and needles day. I was reminded by a dear friend to see the waves coming in gently, calmly and miracles do happen as the scientists scratched their heads asking ” what just happened? That’s not possible!” But those who were actively working on ease and grace for the situation, hats off to you! For my family and the many many families affected by the earthquakes our prayers continue to be with you through this difficult moment, that you too get through this with ease and grace.

Today I saw the power of prayer and team work with humanity divert what could have been a very very bad situation repeating itself. It brought to mind the need to talk about a couple of things, like we are co creators, and we can change the outcome or at least ease the outcome of certain events which are in motion right now. By remembering to stay calm and not in a place of panic and fear, but to be in a place of love if you can do this, the fear subsides and becomes transmuted. It reminded me of faith, to have faith that our loved ones no matter what is going on in the world are safe from harms way if we believe them to be.

Faith, to hold the faith that the universe knows what it’s doing and that there are no accidents in this life, in this reality, that it is a perfect harmonious dance we all share in together. That we are still in duality, although I will tell you that concept is going away fast. And anything associated with it will fall as well. So really what are you doing out there right now? Are you thinking that you will not have to deal with this stuff in this lifetime? That the government has it all under control? That this is someone else we are discussing, not YOU?! Well wake up! Because the time is NOW when things can be changed in the present moment! Think in terms of the 1800’s and how they didn’t have tv and gas lines and sewers and things like this, are you prepared to live like your ancestors did? Do you know how to make a fire? do you know your survival skills? Have you upgraded your girlscout badges lately? Ladies and gents, yes we can change the out comes, but we need to be realistic too! Be prepared with water and food stored away enough for a couple of weeks at least if you can and more if you are able. Water will be your most precious commodity. In the times I have lived through an earthquake, that was the one thing in short supply and high demand, nothing worked, it was like camping through aftershocks for days. People are not pleasant when they feel fear and lack. Very difficult to keep calm at times. But for the most part, I saw families pull together and help each other get through the very real and scary moments and offer to share what they had with those who had nothing. I saw humanity show it’s true beauty during the moments of pure darkness. It was amazing. I’m sure the people of Katrina and other disasters feel much the same way. When you share an experience like that it changes you just a little bit. In that flash of a moment it all stops meaning anything and there is just the love. Getting that part straight in your head is the hard part, that really none of the other stuff ultimately matters as you do not take that with you, your soul stores it but you do not continue to experience that same lifetimes lessons on the other side. The only thing which is true and does truly remain is the love we feel in our hearts.

So to remember to think positive, as my angels have been telling me to do all week! I thank them daily for watching over me.

Love n Light everyone!

Kimberly

Read Full Post »

We have recorded most of this blog to audio, we did not include all the videos on the recording but a few snippets to get the idea of what was shared. Thanks! Now onto the blog!

Greetings and salutations! I do hope the day is a beautiful one for you!  We have been working very hard on adding new features to the blog as well as the sites for Illuminations of Light. Preparing for our guests up and coming on the radio show.  I am pleased to announce that we will be having Ronna Herman as our first guest, we also have Michael Jaco, ex USNavy SEAL who has written a magnificent book called “The Intuitive Warrior” which I have to tell you guys is a fantastic book for everyone especially the young men in your life! My fifteen year old couldn’t put it down! That show will air 3/9/10-9pm mst. Then of course the Sedona Lights crew joins us 2/23/10! So lots of great guests, we are so blessed and honored to have them joining us! Be sure to tune in for the show!

Ok so enough of the radio stuff and onto today’s subject.  This is a difficult topic to discuss for most people because trust like love can be an illusive emotion. Not sure how to describe it. Why do we require it? What does it mean to you? How do we trust when no one has ever given us something to trust about? These are questions I hear a lot from clients and myself in my own evaluation of what trust is.

Well I cannot say that I am an expert, but I can share with you what the experts say… and give you my opinions about this topic based on what my feelings are.

This is a fairly good article on the topic of rebuilding trust after betrayal

I have had some difficulty in writing this particular entry of the blogs, because on a personal level, the breech of trust has been a prevalent message for me on a personal level.  In the course of this year, I have experienced in people that are close to me, turning on me and betraying me on many levels. So in the course of doing research, a lot of my own stuff came up.  When I evaluated it, did my list, I recognized that I was continuing to have the expectation that people would do what they said, behave a certain way, keep their promises, honor my belongings in my home and vehicle, to honor my wishes, my physical body, to do a job well done for monies earned, be my friend and not my enemy. That is a lot of expectations to have out there in the thinking processes. Then came the word FAITH. To have faith that everything will be handled and fixed. If I believe it will. But you know in the throws of my panic, and I definitely was panicked! I found it very difficult to focus on anything else except how in the world was I going to do all I needed to do and make things come together. This led to looking at my need to control. I had to tell myself, I had no control over any of the things which were taking place around me. And mad about it! Then I had to come to a place of acceptance with that idea, not easily, my inner child was fighting this big time! So once I evaluated what I did and did not have control over, I was able to breath again.  I was able to put things out of the emotional state back into a spiritual state with some deep breathing, talking to a friend, food, crying to release the built up frustrations, rest and then processing.  In the end, it was a computer error, all was fine and I was not as bad off as I originally thought. But I will tell you the drama that set off in my mind was pretty amazing even to me! I was going there! After so much loss this past several years, after all the fighting I did last month to make the radio show and such come together financially, the friends I have had to say goodbye to for good, trust and trusting the universe was not in my mindset. I had to consciously pull it back to get to that point of balance again.

So what is trust?

Trust is a comfort zone within our being that allows us to fully relax and be ourselves. To know that our confidences will be kept and our beings honored and respected. By my definition anyways.

On a metaphysical level however, it is holding onto expectations. If we are having expectations and or judgment about a thing then we are not coming from a place of unconditional love. Because unconditional love has no room for either by definition. Things just ARE. People are where they are in their path and lessons, and sometimes they can act out of character due to outside circumstances, or imbalances which are not within our ability to control. Circumstances can look one way and turn out a totally different way then we thought. If we allow our past experiences to rule our reactions, we are not coming from that place of peace or love.

Forgiveness:

When we agree to forgive a broken trust or betrayal it doesn’t mean that we forget. But it is in the not forgetting that we remember our lessons with regard to that incident.  It’s in the remembering that we recognize certain signs right? Many people would agree with that statement, but the reality is if we are staying truly in the moment, in the right now, then we are not experiencing the exact same thing in the exact same way, we are in a different place because we are different and have hopefully grown from that past experience. If we have not let go then there will be reactions, expectations and lots of self sabotage.  Of course I am not referring to life threatening circumstances, I would not recommend that you stay with a person who continues to be abusive, but you can in the recovery come to a place of tolerance and forgiveness of that person.  If we know a person is a chronic liar, white lies, half truths, omissions of facts to the whole story, or just bold face lies to our face. The person is more then likely coming from a place of fear that they would feel the need to lie.  So try to see things from their eyes. Why are they doing what it is they are doing? Are they ill? Are they afraid? Are they within their rational thinking zone? If not then know that they will have to deal with the consequences of their own actions. They will be repaid by the law of cause and effect. Look at them with pity not anger and loathing and disgust, with compassion for the pain they must be under. This is coming from the place of uncondtional love. Remember, ” Let he who has not sinned cast the first stone.” None of us are perfect. We all make mistakes. Sometimes those mistakes are repeated because the person does not see themselves as doing that, i.e. compulsive liars, sociopaths, co dependents, addicts, or just people who are in denial or believe their own lies they have been telling them so long. In the instance of adultery, this is something that can definitely be worked around and through if you love your partner enough to put the effort and the work involved to make it work.  Often times cheating is a symptom of much deeper rooted issues within a persona or a relationship. It’s the core reasons WHY someone looks outside of a relationship which are the real culprits of the break down. Communications are essential, being honest with one’s self and then their partner is also essential.

Honesty. To be able to at the very least, be honest with yourself. When you are cheating and lying to your family, you are a liar. That’s not calling names, it’s stating a fact. You are lying to yourself to think otherwise.  If you are not following through with your word, you are lying. If you are not keeping promises or going back on them, you are lying.  If you are flaking on appointments and making excuses that’s still a form of lying and if you are telling a half truth, or half information, that too is a lie.

Webster’s defines these terms as such:

Lie-

intransitive verb 1 : to make an untrue statement with intent to deceive
2 : to create a false or misleading impression

transitive verb : to bring about by telling lies <lied his way out of trouble>

synonyms lie, prevaricate, equivocate, palter, fib mean to tell an untruth. lie is the blunt term, imputing dishonesty <lied about where he had been>. prevaricate softens the bluntness of lie by implying quibbling or confusing the issue <during the hearings the witness did his best to prevaricate>. equivocate implies using words having more than one sense so as to seem to say one thing but intend another <equivocated endlessly in an attempt to mislead her inquisitors>. palter implies making unreliable statements of fact or intention or insincere promises <a swindler paltering with his investors>. fib applies to a telling of a trivial untruth <fibbed about the price of the new suit>.
Liar-
Main Entry: li·ar
Pronunciation: \ˈlī(-ə)r\
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English, from Old English lēogere, from lēogan to lie — more at lie
Date: before 12th century

: a person who tells lies

Honesty-

Main Entry: hon·es·ty
Pronunciation: \ˈä-nəs-tē\
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural hon·es·ties
Date: 14th century

1 obsolete : chastity
2 a : fairness and straightforwardness of conduct b : adherence to the facts : sincerity
3 : any of a genus (Lunaria) of European herbs of the mustard family with toothed leaves and flat disk-shaped siliques

synonyms honesty, honor, integrity, probity mean uprightness of character or action. honesty implies a refusal to lie, steal, or deceive in any way. honor suggests an active or anxious regard for the standards of one’s profession, calling, or position. integrity implies trustworthiness and incorruptibility to a degree that one is incapable of being false to a trust, responsibility, or pledge. probity implies tried and proven honesty or integrity.
Trust:
Main Entry: 1trust
Pronunciation: \ˈtrəst\
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English, probably of Scandinavian origin; akin to Old Norse traust trust; akin to Old English trēowe faithful — more at true
Date: 13th century

1 a : assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something b : one in which confidence is placed
2 a : dependence on something future or contingent : hope b : reliance on future payment for property (as merchandise) delivered : credit <bought furniture on trust>
3 a : a property interest held by one person for the benefit of another b : a combination of firms or corporations formed by a legal agreement; especially : one that reduces or threatens to reduce competition
4 archaic : trustworthiness
5 a (1) : a charge or duty imposed in faith or confidence or as a condition of some relationship (2) : something committed or entrusted to one to be used or cared for in the interest of another b : responsible charge or office c : care, custody <the child committed to her trust>

in trust : in the care or possession of a trustee

Betray-

Main Entry: be·tray
Pronunciation: \bi-ˈtrā, bē-\
Function: verb
Etymology: Middle English, from be- + trayen to betray, from Anglo-French trahir, from Latin tradere — more at traitor
Date: 13th century

transitive verb 1 : to lead astray; especially : seduce
2 : to deliver to an enemy by treachery
3 : to fail or desert especially in time of need <betrayed his family>
4 a : to reveal unintentionally <betray one’s true feelings> b : show, indicate c : to disclose in violation of confidence <betray a secret>intransitive verb : to prove false

synonyms see reveal

be·tray·al \-ˈtrā(-ə)l\ noun

be·tray·er \-ˈtrā-ər\ noun

FORGIVE:

Main Entry: for·give
Pronunciation: \fər-ˈgiv, fȯr-\
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): for·gave \-ˈgāv\; for·giv·en \-ˈgi-vən\; for·giv·ing
Etymology: Middle English, from Old English forgifan, from for- + gifan to give
Date: before 12th century

transitive verb 1 a : to give up resentment of or claim to requital for <forgive an insult> b : to grant relief from payment of <forgive a debt>
2 : to cease to feel resentment against (an offender) : pardon <forgive one’s enemies>intransitive verb : to grant forgiveness

EXPECTATION:

Main Entry: ex·pec·ta·tion
Pronunciation: \ˌek-ˌspek-ˈtā-shən, ik-\
Function: noun
Date: 1540

1 : the act or state of expecting : anticipation <in expectation of what would happen>
2 a : something expected <not up to expectations> <expectations for an economic recovery> b : basis for expecting : assurance <they have every expectation of success> c : prospects of inheritance —usually used in plural
3 : the state of being expected
4 a : expectancy 2b b : expected value

ex·pec·ta·tion·al \-ˈtā-shə-nəl, -shnəl\ adjective

JUDGMENT:

Main Entry: judg·ment
Variant(s): or judge·ment \ˈjəj-mənt\
Function: noun
Date: 13th century

1 a : a formal utterance of an authoritative opinion b : an opinion so pronounced
2 a : a formal decision given by a court b (1) : an obligation (as a debt) created by the decree of a court (2) : a certificate evidencing such a decree
3 a capitalized : the final judging of humankind by God b : a divine sentence or decision; specifically : a calamity held to be sent by God
4 a : the process of forming an opinion or evaluation by discerning and comparing b : an opinion or estimate so formed
5 a : the capacity for judging : discernment b : the exercise of this capacity
6 : a proposition stating something believed or asserted

synonyms see sense
BALANCE-
9 : mental and emotional steadiness
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE:
to love unconditionally, no expectation, no judgment or opinion, to allow people and things to just BE as they are right now.
If we are communicating well and effectively, if we are coming from a place of forgiveness and unconditional love, if we are allowing the other person to be themselves in a non controlling fashion, if we are being courteous and kind and understanding and compassionate to those around us, trust comes naturally. When we lack trust, we are coming from a place of lack, of fear, of non belief and non faith. This does nothing for the other party or the situation, only serves to make us upset and angry. We have to release the expectations that people behave a certain way or we are trying to exert control over something we have no control over. Thus our feelings of betrayal. We are truly responsible for how WE feel. No one else. Trust in yourself. Trust in the universe that all things are perfect at all times. Trust in the ebbs and flows of life. Give thanks even in the moments of greatest frustration and despair.
FAITH- Find Answers In The Heart!  If you are truly a spiritual person, then KNOW that things will work out for your highest good and the good of all concerned. KNOW that you are not alone EVER! When we say a prayer, say it like this…”Thank you for <insert the thing you are asking for>” and KNOW that it’s been heard and will be answered one way or the other. Then LEAVE IT THERE! If you begin to worry, or fret or discuss it you take it back from the universe! Let go and let god! Means leave it there, and know in your heart that it will be handled! If you can do this, if you consciously make that choice in the middle of the worry, you will see that things clear up much more quickly, answers are revealed, solutions brought to the light, opportunities open up again. We are truly our own worst enemies. We muck things up all the time. People are human. Humans learn from experiences good and bad. Sometimes, it takes a lifetime of experience to get it, sometimes several, but it is neither right or wrong. For there is no right or wrong. There is what works and what doesn’t work for us. Cause and effect. But there is no right and wrong. Just what is.
So if you are struggling with the issues of trust. Whether to trust or not. How to feel that peace and flow where trust and safety just are there. Begin with YOU. Look at those things which you do not really wish to admit to yourself. Healer, heal thyself. Begin with being honest with yourself brutally honest. See if this doesn’t change your attitude and your life just a little bit. It is something which is earned, how we treat each other makes a big difference. Consistency and repeated behaviors instill security and that safety feeling. Keeping confidences. Keeping your word. Things that we all would like to have. So put that out. Be an honest person to the best of your ability. Be a forgiving and caring person, you would want that if the shoe were on the other foot. Do not be extreme, use good common sense. If someone is hurting you, do what you can to stop them from doing it again. Do not put yourself into circumstances which will encourage the behavior. If someone steals from you, do not leave valuable things alone with them. If someone constantly lies to you, take it with a grain of salt and verify it. Do not accuse just because they have done it before, doesn’t always mean they will do it again, so ASK for clarification when words and actions do not line up. If they still lie then walk away, do not engage. Feel sorry for them and walk away knowing you know what the truth is. For they may see their version of the truth and they are entitled to it even if you disagree. If someone has left you for another, then they are not meant to be with you, it’s their choice too. If they have been unfaithful and broken an agreement, look at the reasons why and assess the core issues. It may or may not work out, you may find the other issues are not ones that can be worked out, then again you may find they can be and it will bring you together even stronger then before. No the love and the feelings can never be the same, but we can choose which way they go. We choose, we decide. We also when dealing with others have to honor their freedom of choice too. That’s a tough one to swallow for most. Why we love them and they will not love us back. What did we do ?? Sometimes, most times, it’s not about YOU. It’s about them and their own issues or insecurities or fears. Sometimes its just time to move on, people are in our lives a day, a season or a lifetime. Not all things are meant to last forever, just for their time. Acceptance is difficult. WE want to control outcomes, we want to control other’s behaviors. Reality, looking at things as they are , not as they could be or should be or were.  I’m sure there are many out there who would disagree with this assessment of trust and the solutions it provides and that’s fine. These are my perspectives, how I get through, how I can forgive even the most dreadful behaviors. Perhaps some of this will  help you or someone you know when you are faced with betrayal of any kind. The disappointment which stems from expectations not met. That’s on us. Not the other person. They have to live with their actions and words and choices. Just as we all do. But we can overcome the lack of trust in others and ourselves. It takes work and real honesty within ourselves.
I think that’s enough for today. Blessed be, one and ALL.
with love n light in my heart,
Kimberly
Here’s some other experts and what they have to say on this topic.

Patty German-Individual Therapy: Learning to Trust Again

Burt Harding on Trust
***
***
Burt Harding on What to do when caught in emotional suffering….What’s Next?
***

***
Burt Harding on Loving Acceptance Brings Total Change…
****
Learning to trust again …. Why should we?
***
Part II of Learning to Trust Again….
There are 15 entries to this last video series, you can access them on the right side of youtubes other videos.
****
Learning to trust others the right way….
****
Be an encourager
****
How to get your partner to trust you again….

Read Full Post »